What is actually obstructing our spiritual growth?
Now one thing is there, obstructing Sahasrara, is the movement of your Agnya into thoughts. That is the only thing- that is the only thing that stops your entry into Sahaja Yoga.
Thoughts are coming all the time because a human being is born who reacts to everything. React to this and react to that and thoughts coming and thoughts go. There is a big crowd of thoughts because of that your attention cannot cross over Agnya and cannot reside in the Sahasrara.
So first of all one should see, what sort of thoughts are coming. You have to condemn yourself sometimes. You have to say:
- What nonsense.
- What have I been doing?
- What is the matter with me?
- How could I do all that?’
Once you start doing that, these thoughts will start disappearing.
These thoughts are coming from two angles :
These thoughts are coming from two angle: one from the ego and another from your conditionings. And these are so much built up within you that they don’t allow your Agnya to be crossed. That is why we have two Bija Mantras of HAM, KSHAM.
First one is when it is conditioning. You are endowed with this kind of fear:
- ‘I should not do like this.
- I should not do like that.
- This is not allowed.
- That is not allowed.’
That is the conditioning part of it. Conditioning can be of many types.
But the ego part is that:
- ‘I must overpower everybody.
- I must get this.
- I must be able to rule everyone.’
These two things are there in the mind, which are all the time crossing. So it is important that we should go into thoughtless awareness and that thoughtless awareness is the real way that your Sahasrara can be nourished by the Kundalini. Because Kundalini cannot go through, cannot pass through and for that, as I said, there are two Bija Mantras. One is HAM. Another is KSHAM.
So if you are conditioned, you are frightened, you are afraid and you have ideas about yourself. These days the way people are describing: They say: ‘I am an extrovert.’ Somebody will say: ‘I am an introvert.’ Somebody will say: ‘I am hippy.. I am that.. I am that..’
All kinds of things they can have attributed to themselves. But these ideas are all coming from outside, they are not from inside. To get to the inner side of yourself, the subtler side of your being, you must allow the Kundalini to go through the Agnya.
To cross the Agnya is a very important thing in modern times. And for that you have to meditate. If you can meditate with complete faith in yourself, this Agnya can be opened up. With surrendering to the Divine, you have to surrender yourself to the Divine and when this Agnya opens, you will be amazed. Your Sahasrara is just waiting to transfer, to give you all the help that you need through the all pervading power.
Your connection of Sahasrara with the all pervading power is established and by that you will be amazed how all these seven chakras work for you, how they help you, how they try to give you whatever is the real knowledge about everything. This real knowledge that you get is very joy giving.
You can see this real knowledge in everything. You don’t have to start reading any book about it. In every situation and in every person, in every flower, in every natural happening, you see clearly the hand of the Divine. Once you see the hand of the Divine, your ego start disappearing, once you say that: ‘It is you. You do everything.’
Kabira has said something great about this. He said that when the goat is alive, it goes on saying I am, ma ma, I am, I am. But when it is slaughtered and its intestines are made into strings, which are used for cleaning the cotton, then it said tuhi, tuhi, you are, you are. See in this symbolic way, they have suggested that you have to become the, dissolved into this divine power. It is the divine power that does everything.
What am I? I was just a drop and I fell into this ocean of awareness of the divine power and that is taking over and working it out. That will help you a lot to be a great Sahaja Yogi.
H.H.Shree Mataji Nirmala Devi
Sahasrara Puja Cabella,
10th May 1998